My Year of Growth: Building Foundations for Future Success
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Chapter 1: Acknowledging the Current Reality
Recent events over the past few weeks have led me to one clear conclusion: this year may not be my year, and I’m coming to terms with that.
As we near September, I recognize that despite my efforts, I have not achieved many of the goals I set for myself. A significant factor is the absence of clear objectives and actionable plans to reach them. So, what does it mean when someone refers to it as “my year”?
Typically, “my year” signifies a period in which one finally realizes their aspirations, often in terms of financial stability—perhaps earning a promotion or witnessing your business yield a sustainable income. However, I’ve accepted that financial success may not be within my grasp this year.
The first video, "Ethel Cain - American Teenager (Official Visualizer)," explores themes of youth and identity. It resonates with my journey of self-discovery and the challenges of navigating adulthood.
I think I began addressing my mental health concerns too late. While it’s true that it’s never too late, I allowed much of the year to slip by, hindered by debilitating anxiety attacks. The belief that I was functioning well, reinforced by those around me, delayed my search for help.
My therapist has indicated that it typically takes several months of consistent sessions to see real progress. I’m only three months into therapy and have just begun adjusting my medication. Although I experience more good days than before, I still face relapses at least once a week.
Realistically, it may take additional months to gain better control over my anxiety. It’s draining to feel composed one moment and overwhelmed the next by minor triggers, like riding the subway. A comforting thought is that my anxiety has a timeline; I’m learning to manage it better.
My anxiety is now manageable enough for me to book and execute my day jobs in the film industry, though that’s about all my energy allows for at this moment. Pretending I have everything together has left me mentally exhausted, often resulting in emotional breakdowns at home.
Section 1.1: Embracing Action
I have finally found the courage to take action. For months—if not years—I’ve been planning various online business ideas. Even before the pandemic hit, I aspired to launch my own venture. Now, I realize I don’t even need a physical product to generate income.
Instead of merely planning and learning, I have transitioned to actively doing. I’ve launched a website, started recording a podcast, begun writing on Medium, created a blog, established social media accounts, and set up a KDP (Kindle Direct Publishing) account.
Subsection 1.1.1: Building the Foundation
Just as with my mental health journey, I understand that patience is essential for laying a solid foundation before witnessing significant results.
Section 1.2: Looking Ahead
All of this leads me to believe that this may not be my year after all. However, by preparing for what lies ahead in 2023, I am optimistic that the following year will be mine!
This is not a tale of self-pity. With September approaching, I recognize that growth requires time. While I may not achieve much beyond setting the groundwork this year, I have four months to kickstart my journey. Let’s get to work!
Chapter 2: Moving Forward with Hope
The second video, "This is probably not my brightest moment," captures relatable moments of struggle and resilience. It highlights the importance of perseverance in the face of challenges, echoing my journey this year.