Celebrating 110 Days of Sobriety: My Journey to Alcohol Freedom
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Chapter 1: A Milestone Achieved
Today marks a significant achievement for me—110 days without alcohol! This is a milestone I never thought I would see.
In 2021, I attempted to quit drinking as part of my New Year’s resolution, setting a goal to stay sober for 100 days. Unfortunately, I only managed to last 58 days before I turned to a bottle of wine to cope with the pain of a lost friendship. It didn’t take long for me to revert back to my old habits.
I felt embarrassed having publicly shared my challenge on social media and my blog. Despite trying to be kind to myself during that difficult time, I was overwhelmed by feelings of shame and disappointment.
Why couldn't I quit?
Admitting the Challenge
I’ve come to understand that I was part of the “functioning” drinkers group. I didn’t drink every day, nor did I start my mornings with a drink to alleviate a hangover, but my consumption was excessive.
When you can down several beers and a full bottle of wine without suffering a hangover, it’s a clear warning sign. I often justified my drinking because I would simply fall asleep on the couch while watching TV. I thought I had everything under control, but that was a misleading assumption.
Alcohol vs. Self-Control
If you're ever uncertain about who’s in charge—yourself or alcohol—consider attempting to quit. Imagine stopping for a month, three months, a year... or even forever. Does the thought frighten you? It certainly did for me.
I used to think that three months would be manageable, convincing myself that at the end, I could reward myself with a lovely bottle of wine.
What Changed This Time?
This time, I believe a shift in mindset has been crucial. Instead of viewing abstaining as a sacrifice, I've approached it as a choice. I’ve embraced the identity of a non-drinker from the outset.
Additionally, I’ve been reading various books on alcohol and addiction, which have enlightened me about its effects on both the body and mind. These resources dispelled many myths I previously accepted as truths, such as the idea that alcohol relieves stress or enhances sociability.
Alcohol is a drug, and surprisingly, it’s one of the few that society tends to stigmatize those who choose to abstain.
One might think, “Wow, she couldn’t handle her drinking. She had to stop. She must be weak.” In reality, stepping away from alcohol in a culture that normalizes its use is an act of immense strength and bravery.
Anyone who drinks risks losing control. Just because someone appears to manage their drinking doesn't mean they won't face similar struggles down the line. It’s not a source of shame; it’s simply the nature of the substance.
Support Matters
The cravings can be incredibly intense. Just last week, my mind suggested that having a drink wouldn’t be harmful since I’ve proven my ability to quit.
Recognizing this dangerous line of thought, I sought help by downloading another book on quitting drinking. The support literature, often referred to as "Quit Lit," has been invaluable.
No one is alone in the journey to sobriety; many have faced similar battles and understand what it entails. I am deeply appreciative of the support system I have as I navigate this path.
I understand how delicate sobriety can be. “One day at a time” is a mantra I often hear in sobriety circles. While I have long-term aspirations, I’m currently just grateful to approach my four-month milestone.
This video titled Celebrating 110 Days Booze Free With A Beer shares insights and reflections on the journey of quitting drinking, resonating with many who are on a similar path.
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Chapter 2: Ongoing Support and Reflection
In the video 100 Days Without Alcohol: Here's What Happened, viewers can explore the transformative experiences of those who have chosen sobriety, offering inspiration and solidarity.